Happy New Year!!

Alright. So I've been slacking on the blogging. My bad, everybody. I've been watching small children and living my life. And my, has it been a great one to live. ^_^ I hope everyone had a decent holiday. Also, this is my belated Christmas shout out to Janine and Robert. Lol ♥ ♥ ♥ I'll see y'all in a couple of weeks, yeah?

This year, in case anyone was wondering, I received a new phone and Pokemon Soul Silver. I feel quite invincible.

Anywhoo. For me to not have gone anywhere or done much of anything since I've been home, it's been a pretty busy couple of weeks. I lost my keys, like, as soon as I got here. [Still haven't found them, btw..] There have been tears. There has been laughter. There has been other stuff. And I'm glad the year is ending the way it is.

The following letter, paragraph, note thingie is a note that I wrote on facebook earlier today. Every year on NYE, I write a note talking about the year that's ending and how I felt about it and its events and such. I said that I would stop doing it once I got to college, but I felt like the year 2010 was so eventful, that I had to write one this year. I made it short and sweet so it wouldn't attract too much attention or whatever, but I said everything I had to say about the year. Enjoy that:

I honestly think this might be the last note I write on new year's eve. I think.. This was really something I did in high school, and I said I wasn't going to keep doing it every year, but I feel like 2010 needs to be talked about. I spent this year with amazing people and had amazing experiences that will be hard to ever forget. All in all, it was an awesome year. It was the year I made one of the biggest transitions of my life, dug up a great relationship with one of my best friends, made some new friends, and grew up a little bit more. I learned a little more about myself as well as other people. I grew a little closer to some people, including my mother. Overall, I just had a damn good time. There were some scary bits, some tears, and some losses, but we stuck it out and made it to the end of the year. I think the class of 2010 appreciated this year more than some. So let this be my final congratulations to all of you who made it out of that place called high school and completed your first semester of college in hopes of making it somewhere in life. We only have (at least) seven more to go! :D And with that, let me wish the class of 2011 the best of luck. Your year is coming up, so make the best of it.

Let's go out with a bang everybody. Love y'all. And to those I don't love, I don't hate you either :P lol. The end.

Happy New Year!

♥

The Final Stretch Part II

Alright. I never thought I would be that over achieving student that stayed up all hours of the night studying for a college final. I've always planned on spacing out my study time instead of trying to cram the night before. However, I didn't go to sleep until about 5 this morning because I was up all hours of the night studying for history. It was a total accident, but, after taking my history final today, I've got to say, it helped. So I appreciate the lack of slumber. It's probably not a healthy thing to do, but it was helpful. I guess next time, I'll study harder during the day and sleep earlier. I really don't like staying up that late and stressing about stuff.

Welp. I have one more final today and another tomorrow and I am so ready for both. And then I'll be home in two days ^_^. I think this calls for celebration.

Let's do it. [<--- new catch phrase, btw.]

See y'all in Chicago! [unless I post something before I leave. Which I doubt I'm going to do...]

♥

Alsoooo, today is my boo thang's birthday ^_^ lol

so. Happy birthday to him. ♥

Man... This month is full of stuff, from birthdays, holidays, anniversaries... It's too real out here. And I'm too broke for all of it..

Quotes

I have absolutely no idea what provoked me to do this, but, here ya go. A bunch of mushy quotes about feelings that I happen to enjoy. [blech.]

"Love is being vulnerable enough to give someone the ability to hurt you but trusting them not to."

"Love is just a word until someone comes along and gives it meaning."

"Stupid conversations make sense when you are talking to someone special."

Juno: I think I'm in love with you.

Paulie: You mean as friends?

Juno: No... I mean for real. 'Cause you're, like, the coolest person I've ever met, and you don't even have to try, you know...

Paulie: I try really hard, actually.

-- Juno MacGuff and Paulie Bleeker (Ellen Paige and Michael Cera) in Juno [one of my favorite movies ever.]

"How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard." -- Annie

"It doesn't matter if the guy is perfect or the girl is perfect, as long as they are perfect for each other." -- Good Will Hunting [never seen it...lol]

"I am someone else when I'm with you, someone more like myself." -- Original Sin [also never seen it]

"I love that you get cold when it is 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend a day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible." -- When Harry Met Sally

"I'd rather die tomorrow than live a hundred years without knowing you." -- John Smith in Pocahontas

"You can't help who you love, you're not supposed to." -- Save the Last Dance

"If your not willing to sound stupid, you're not worthy of falling in love." -- A Lot Like Love [another favorite movie]

"Love is just love. It can never be explained."

"I don't think there's a whole lot to the concept of 'love.' There's another person that you have some unexplainable feeling for, that you'd do just about anything for, that would cause you pain if they weren't in your life. It doesn't make sense to you, but you just roll with it. That's all love is."

There. I'm done. Cuz this is getting gross...lol.

The Final Stretch: Coming to the End of the Semester

I only have one day of classes left. That. Is. Awesome. As I sit here procrastinating [I should totally be doing this project, but my blog is just as important ^_^], I'm thinking about all that I need to get done. As well as getting annoyed by all these tweets from John Legend getting sent to my phone. I'm also reflecting on my first college semester. It was a bittersweet few months. I'm proud of myself for sticking it out and not completely losing my mind. [Completely...] I've got to say, I got nothing I expected from everything I expected. Meaning, a lot of things happened the way I expected them to, but I guess I didn't know what to do when they did happen. Like, I learned that I don't like living with other people. I really, really, really can't stand girls. (Nothing personal, people I live with. Lol it's a general statement, it's not your fault.) I love to sleep. And I love my city. These are all things I kinda knew already, but being here really slapped me in the face with all of those facts. But I managed. It took me almost the entire semester to realize that I was in school. So, I kinda screwed around this entire semester. But, I am honestly excited for next semester. I take my first journalism class and I am TOO geeked. [lol did I just "show my colors" again?] Here's a list for myself that I might need to consult every once in a while in case I need to remember what I'm doing with my life.

♥ WAKE THE HELL UP.

Go to bed on time, stupid. If you know you have class in the morning, don't pull an all-nighter. Take your silly butt to bed. And, when you do go to bed on time, try waking up in the morning. You can get more done during the day.

[SN: Luckily, I only have 9 o'clock lecture classes two days out of the week. Ftw.]

♥ HOME WILL STILL BE THERE WHEN YOU GET BACK, SO STOP WORRYING ABOUT IT SO MUCH.

Apparently, all I do is talk about home. Thus and therefore, I'm going to make a conscious effort to not talk so much about home. I'll keep a couple of pictures on my laptop or on the wall, and I'll keep it moving. Happy, Janine? lol

♥ DON'T PROCRASTINATE. YOU WILL REGRET IT.

Pretty self-explanatory. Don't be so easily amused/distracted. But at the same time, don't make your life about workworkworkworkwork. You will get stressed out and die. Seriously, too many people have come to me talking about how stressed they are, and I always tell them to calm down, relax, take a break, and come back. It helps. But I get too distracted so my breaks always wind up being "Ehhh, I'll finish it tomorrow." Lol

♥ GO TO CLASS.

*stern face*

♥ STOP WAITING UNTIL THE LAST MINUTE.

It's ok to get an assignment and not start it the day it's assigned. But don't wait until five minutes before class to finish the assignment and then be forced to rush out of the crib without washing your ass first. It's not a fun thing to do. So don't do it. Plan what you're going to do, be realistic about when and how you're going to do, and then DO IT.

Feel free to follow my advice if you're reading this lol, this doesn't just apply to my life. These are pretty general statements that I feel any college student can benefit from. I guess that's it. Sigh. Let me get to this project. >:{

[btw, happy birthday to mah homegurl, Courtney! ;D]

Opinionated and Ignorant

Coming to college has opened my eyes even more to the different ways that different people act and think. I understand that not everyone has the same ideas and views as the rest of the world, and I accept that. What I don't accept is how other people aren't accepting of different people and ideas. All I basically have to say on the subject is that, it's fine to be opinionated. There's absolutely nothing wrong with that. Also, it wouldn't be fair of me to say that it's not right to express your opinion. I'm all for freedom of speech and expression. What I don't support is being rude about it. Don't decide you don't like somebody because they're different from you, or because you don'y understand them. That's not fair.

Some of the strangest people I know are some of the nicest. And people talk a lot of noise about these strange people. Sometimes, they're just downright mean. I don't like it. And it's not just with strange people, it's everywhere. Like, people saying they don't like music by people of another race...have you listened to it before you decided you didn't like it? People talk a lot of noise about homo- and bisexuality...you don't know the person you're talking shit about, but you don't like them because they're gay? Really? People talk about people who aren't virgins...just because she had sex, she's a slut or she might be pregnant?

The whole world is different. People need to grow up and realize that, and accept it. It's not fair to judge based on your opinions like that. Be more open-minded. I don't give a hoot if you disagree with the way a person lives their life, it's not your life to live. Keep your opinions to yourself, and give people a chance before you rule them out as a dislikeable person. Shit's annoying... That is all.

♥

Sex Doesn't Make You a Slut

Can we be adults for a minute? (No, seriously, you have to be pretty mature to read this post, because I made it easy for giggle fits.) Can we all be accepting of the fact that once we hit the age of 17, it is safe to assume that at least half of the people we know are not as "pure" as you would like to think? (SN: the legal age of consent is 17 in most states, meaning people are doing it with no consequence. Meaning people are doing it all over the place.) You may not agree with the dirty deeds they do, but they do it and that's not going to change because you want it to. I salute the people my age, and maybe even a few years older, that are patient and strong-willed enough to not have sex just yet. However, I'm not mad at the people that didn't wait.

Sex is as natural as sleeping or peeing. Your body is made to do it. Puberty happens, and you're supposed to put those wobbly bits to use (excuse my terminology, i give everything goofy names lol). Therefore, I don't think it's anyone's place to say that they don't think someone should be doing it. Number one, don't tell somebody else how to live their life; as long as you're living yours right, you have nothing to worry about. Number two, it's not like they're doing anything wrong just by having sex. Unless they are doing something wrong and it's not just sex. You have the right to frown upon that... But if people are able, they will do it. And the world is going to have to live with that.

There's a difference between being sexually active and being a slut... If I have sex with my boyfriend, so what? That doesn't make me a slut. That doesn't make me any less of a decent human being. I'm not a slut; I'm not sleeping around with any breathing guy with a penis like it's a hobby. Those are the people you should be worried about, and, even so, you can't tell anyone how to live their life, so you're gonna have to accept the sluts and their ways too, as long as they know they're doing bad things.

This is how I feel about sex... I do it, and so do a lot of the people I know; some of the people that don't do it wouldn't mind the opportunity to do it. That's what our bodies are telling us is the thing to do, not society or the media. No outside sources are FORCING (all of) us to have sex like a lot of people claim. For the most part, we can all make our own decisions... No, I don't believe in waiting until marriage for various reasons, but I do believe in waiting until you find someone that you really care about and that really cares about you, and not doing anything with someone you hardly know. Basically, I may not be "pure,", but it's not like I don't have any moral standards at all.

I just wanted to make that point. Don't look at someone like they're a bad person based on the fact that their not a virgin.

I'll give my slut talk another day. ;D

♥

Check It Out, Wrap It Up

Today is World AIDS Day, everybody (in case you weren't aware already). I'm not gonna preach to you today about not having sex. I can't tell you how to live your life, as long as you're smart about it. Have as much sex as you want, I don't give a hoot, but be careful. Wrap it up. Especially if you already know you're positive for something... If you don't know, GO GET TESTED. If you are sexually active, it's a smart thing to do. You can be as sure as you want that you don't have anything, but you won't know for sure unless you get tested. You'll feel so much better knowing for sure. And if you do test positive for something, it's better to catch it than to let it sit there and get worse. As soon as I find a place to go, I'm going to get tested today. It's FREE guys. And confidential and all of that.

Here's some quick facts about HIV and AIDS:

♥ HIV stands for 'human immunodeficiency virus' and AIDS stands for 'acquired immunodeficiency syndrome'.

♥ HIV isn't only contracted by having sex, although it is probably the most common way to transfer the disease.

♥ Most people with HIV don't even know that they have it, because they don't feel ill right when they get it. However, some people develop some sort of a fever-like illness with fever, rash, joint pains, and enlarged lymph nodes.

♥ Regardless of if they feel sick or not, people infected with HIV are highly infectious during the first six weeks of them being infected.

♥ THE ONLY WAY TO DETERMINE WHETHER HIV IS PRESENT IN A PERSON'S BODY IS BY TESTING FOR HIV ANTIBODIES OR FOR HIV ITSELF.

♥ There are different stages of HIV based on certain signs, symptoms, infections, and cancers. People at the third stage of HIV most likely have AIDS, and people at the fourth definitely do.

♥ AIDS is defined by the occurrence of any of more than 20 infections or cancers associated with the deficiency of the immune system that stem from HIV infection.

♥ AIDS is also defined in the basis of a CD4 positive T cell count of less than 200 per cubed mm of blood. But that's fancy stuff.

♥ The majority of people infected with HIV, if not treated, develop signs of HIV-related illness within 5-10 years. The time between getting infected with HIV and being diagnosed with AIDS can be 10-15 years, if not longer.

♥ There's no cure just yet, but there is treatment that can slow the disease down and make it take longer to develop into AIDS.

♥ You can find more info here:

What It Is

Symptoms

Contracting the Disease

Prevention

Testing and Counseling

BE INFORMED.

KNOW YOUR STATUS.

BE SAFE.

Help fight the war against AIDS.

All information obtained from:

Center for Disease Control and Prevention [www.cdc.gov]

Epigee [www.epigee.org]

UNAIDS [www.unaids.org]

P.S.

Here's a cool little thing some celebrities are doing.

And as we come to a close...

I'm leaving tomorrow. It's been so fun being back home and I hate that I have to leave so soon. But, it was awesome seeing all my friends and family and getting some good food in my system, and getting a taste of everything I felt like I've been missing. I'm gonna miss this city like crazy and, even more so, the people in it, but I'll be back in less than a month, and I'm gonna have even more of a good time then. I just can't believe this week went by as fast as it did. Yiiiiiiikes.

♥

P.S. he made me cry...lol. and i knew i missed him, but i didn't realize i missed him that damn much. it was kinda scary. but i'm a g, so i sucked it up cuz we don't have feelings 'round here. *cough* >___>

I'm Coming Home Again :D

Well, everybody. Today's the day. I am currently sitting in the lounge waiting for my mother to arrive in that ol' black car to whisk me away back to the place I belong: Chicago. And I am ever so excited. I'm a little sad that she decided to leave home so late, but all that matters is I'm leaving today. I finally get that break I've been waiting for. I get a little time to relax, a little time to catch up on things, and I just get to be in Chicago again. I love it.

I guess that's it for now. I think I might take a nap until she gets here, I have some time.

Until next time, kiddies. ;D

♥

What Ever Happened... [Updatage!] (ONE MORE DAY)

So, in case you haven't already noticed, I've tricked out my blog. It's a lot more organized, and there's also tuneage! I expect you will enjoy it all.

Anywhoo.

Right now, I'm watching Cheaper by the Dozen. I'm not so much watching it as I am letting it play in the background because I don't feel like turning off the TV or getting up to find the remote to change the channel. I almost forgot Hilary Duff existed, let alone, was in this movie. She's one of many celebrities the world hasn't heard a lot from lately, and I actually kinda wonder what happened to the girl. What's she been up to lately? There are some celebrities that make their appearances and then go back to the shadows. (Do any of you remember Amanda Bynes's little thing with Kid Cudi? She disappeared after they apparently called it quits.) I'm not worried about them. There are folks I haven't heard about in years. Are they the people living a happy, media free life? If so, that's great and all, but I'd like to know if they're still alive.

I actually used to be a huge Hilary Duff fan. Lizzie McGuire used to be one of the best shows ever. Maybe. But, all in all, I preferred Hilary to Lindsay. Last I heard, Hilary married one of the Madden twins and wasn't blonde anymore. I have no clue what she's currently up to.

I will not say that I was a huge Chingy fan. Mainly because I wasn't. Nonetheless, I still wonder what hole the guy crawled into. Last thing I heard about this guy was that he admitted he liked boys and girls. And then he vanished. Any news on this guy?

Jonathan Taylor Thomas, better known as the voice of kid Simba (I don't know if he was better known as that, but, that's who he was....), was all over the place back in the day. He was in movies, TV shows, and, most importantly, The Lion King. I haven't heard anything whatsoever about this guy here. Where'd he go?

I feel like the last time I heard anything about Frankie Muniz, he had become a complete douche. I personally enjoyed him before then. Malcolm in the Middle was one of the shows I had to watch in the evening or I felt incomplete. (not really, I just really liked the show.) I also thoroughly enjoyed Big Fat Liar and Stay Alive, which was an older Frankie movie, but I still liked it. I haven't seen him since then.

And last but certainly not least, the cast of All That. The original cast, especially. There are too many of them for me to name (you can find the complete list here ), but Angelique Bates, Lori Beth Denberg, Katrina Johnson, Kevin Kopelow (I don't even know who that is?), Alisa Reyes, Josh Server have all been M.I.A. and I sorta don't like it. Kenen and Kel went on to do their own thing, but where's everyone else?

I'm sure there are several more people that we all assumed had died, but I didn't want to go into all of them. I just went with the first people that came to mind. I'd actually appreciate any news anyone has on these folks. I don't trust the internet, they told me Frankie Muniz was dead...

♥

And today, I'm thankful for warm socks. I think I might be coming down with something, and these here warm socks make me feel all happy and stuff. ^_^

Sexiest Men Alive? (2)

Ladies and gents. Today I will be talking about two of my fav

orite men. Their names are Ryan Reynolds and Hugh Jackman. In case

you were not aware, today Ryan Reynolds was declared the sexiest man a

live. In case you weren't aware of this either, Hugh Jackman was the sexiest man alive last year. People have been debating whether Ryan deserves to replace Hugh. I don't know if I'm team Ryan or team Hugh because I enjoy them both ever so much.

Ever. So. Much. Today, I will give examples of each to strengthen the world's arguments.

Cute.

Ryan. ♥

Hugh ♥

Fine.

Ryan. ♥ ♥

Hugh. ♥ ♥

GOT DAYUM!!!

RYAN!!! ♥♥ ♥

HUGHHH!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

....today.... I am grateful for beautiful men. Ever so grateful.

Roommate Rules. (3)

Whaddup y'all.

Being in college prepares you for the world, and a good majority of the challenges you will face in your lifetime. One of those challenges you must learn to conquer is living with another person. It's not as easy as it may seem. Sure, you've, most likely, been living with other people your whole life, so this shouldn't be too difficult, right? Not so much. You've probably been living with people that, more or less, share the same ideas about certain things as you. When you get to college and live with someone that comes from a different household, that you've most likely never even met before, it's a whole 'nother thing. I think there are guidelines that all roommates should follow, in terms of courtesy and just learning to get along with each other.

No, this is not me firing shots at my roommate. No, I am not calling anyone out. These are all general statements that I feel anyone can follow if they are living with another person. Anyone who claims otherwise will get a stamp on their forehead that says "YOU ARE WRONG, FOO!" and a smack to the face.

• Keep it clean. Literally.

Responsibility is an important thing that you really learn about while you're here. You may have had chores here and there back at home, but you have no idea what full responsibility is as far as keeping a whole place clean goes. Keep your side of your room clean. Make your bed, take out your garbage, sweep/vacuum your floor. Spray some lysol if necessary. Also, if the garbage gets unruly as far as odor, if you got that good morning breath, or if your roommate farts in their sleep, it's ok to say, hey, the room is a little tart. Or, if you don't feel it necessary to open your mouth, open a window. Turn on a fan, spray some air freshener, do something. Keep everything organized. You don't want to put something somewhere and wake up the next morning looking for it somewhere else and accusing the roomie of stealing.

• Keep it clean. In other ways...

Don't have sex in the dorm room, especially if you share a room with another person. Not even while they're gone. (If you have your own room, there may be ways around that...) You can smell sex. And I'm pretty sure your roommate doesn't want to come home to used condoms chilling at the top of the garbage. And what if they come back during your little escapade? Bad news. Also, don't watch porn and don't masturbate while your roommate is sleeping. That's awkward. For so many reasons... And, if you know your roommate is uncomfortable with profanity, stop cursing so much. You can talk any way you want to with people who are comfortable with that, but if the roomie is too wholesome for your words, calm it down, especially if it's not even necessary.

• Be courteous and polite.

This kinda goes along with cleaning up your language. You don't have to be a saint, no one expects you to be. This is college, which means no parents, no real strict rules, and you can do, pretty much, as you please. But, it's always nice to have common courtesy. If your roommate is trying to sleep or doing homework or studying or talking on the phone, don't barge in the room making as much noise as possible, and don't bring your equally as noisy friends into the room with you. Don't blast your music either. If they do need to be woken up, don't be an asshole

about it. And, for the record, quiet hours means QUIET hours. Shut up when you're supposed to be quiet. Also, if your roommate has politely asked you to keep the door closed, CLOSE THE

DOOR behind you when you leave or

return to the room. Your roommate shouldn't have to get up and close the door behind you. If there is a distraction, there are plenty of other places you should be able to go to mind your business, meaning, to study or do homework, or maybe even skype or take a phone call. But if you feel more comfortable in the room doing whatever you're doing, you have the right to be there. It is your room, after all. But so does that distracting roommate. Just let your roommate know how distracting they're being, and I'm sure you'll be fine. Unless your roommate is just flat out mean. Then there's a problem.

• Do favors every once in a while.

Your roommate might be a sleeper. I know I am. They may not be your responsibility, but it doesn't hurt to give them a hand every once in a while and wake them up if you're awake and you know they have a class. They might even ask you for help. I know, personally, I've always had the most trouble with 8 o'clock classes. They're horrible. Who wants to wake up that early?! So, sometimes I ask for a little assistance with getting up in the morning. (Doesn't always work, but it has before lol.) Little things go a long way. Picking up the mail, letting the roommate use your printer sometimes, giving your roommate an extra meal when you know you have too many, and just doing little stuff that won't even put you out of your way will probably get you in good with your neighbor. No one says you HAVE to do it, but if it's, like, no trouble at all, then go for it.

• Just be nice.

Plain and simple. Don't be a mean person. Don't talk about people behind their backs, don't say harsh things, keep your comments to yourself. You barely know this person. They may do, say, or believe some things you don't agree with, but that's just who they are, and you're going to have to accept that, because that's what the real world is like. Not everyone is the same as you. So don't shoot down their lifestyle, don't be a bitch, don't be an asshole. You don't know their story and they don't know yours. Until you can say you really know that person, you have no right to criticize or judge. You might do it silently in your head, but don't let it come out your mouth, because it will start a whole lot of trouble.

• If you're not getting along...

Figure out what the problem is between the two of you. Talk it out, solve the problem. It's that simple. If you have a problem with your roommate, approach them. Correctly. If you think your roommate has a problem with you, wait and see if they approach you first, but if they don't want to do that for whatever strange reason, you have the right to approach them and ask. Correctly.. You're supposed to be living with this person for a while, and you don't have to be the best friends, but the least you can do is get along. If, somehow, you come up with irreconcilable differences, you might have to get a room switch. But I personally don't recommend rushing into that decision so quickly. It's a lot easier to just solve problems and keep living your lives in your room. You've turned it into your home (for the moment), you shouldn't have to leave.

It's not hard. And if you think it is, it's not impossible. Don't let something as trivial as a roommate issue interfere with the reason you're there in the first place: college. Getting your education on. There are dozens of hundreds of other people all over the place, so you can make other friends. You just have to get along with the person you're living with.

I say it with love.

♥

Also...

I guess today, I'm just thankful to be alive.

And, making up for the last post where I forgot to mention it, I'm also thankful for the opportunities I've been given in life. I might get frustrated and upset and flat out sad sometimes, but, overall, I have a pretty decent life.

Luff. In Real Life... (5)

It's getting closer and closer to the day when I make my departure from this place. And I am ever so excited. Ever. So. Excited.... ^_^

But yeah. So, I was on skype last night (as usual, seeing as I, apparently, don't do anything with my life.. >___>) aaaaand we get to talking about, once again, that bullshit forsaken word: love. I don't remember how or why we started talking about it. It was a brief conversation, but still. It was weird. On the one hand, it was like "love isn't real," at least, for people our age. But then a friend and I started talking, and he said he thought he loved this one girl. Once more, I got to thinking about stuff [y'all know how I do..lol]

I don't necessarily believe that we're incapable of it. I think it all depends on the person's maturity and ability to handle it. I personally think anyone is capable of producing the feeling, they just have to know how to process it when it hits before they can officially label it "love." [for the record, I actually hate saying the word, so you'll probably only see it here no more than 5 times.]

But let me break this down first. I had a power-think moment today [because shower's make me think like crazy about everything...] and I kinda asked myself what it all even means. The first thing I thought of was how people have the tendency to say "trust" and stuff like that. I feel like trust is something that is part of an ideal relationship, not so much something that defines "love." I feel that an ideal relationship can be broken down like this:

-trust

-time

-understanding

-loyalty and honesty

-compatibility & fun

The love part is a bonus. I feel like you can like somebody enough to be in a relationship with them and do all of that ^^^ stuff, and love can come later. True, it works differently for different people, but I honestly think that there is a distinct difference between what love is and what an ideal relationship can be. I see a lot of people say that's what love is. I think those aspects could help lead affection to something more serious, but I don't think that's all there is to it. Love is an emotion, as in it's something you can't really control. You can hide it if you want to, but it's still there. And those things I mentioned before are, for the most part, things you can maneuver and mess with to make it work to your liking. With love, it is what it is. You don't have to understand it and you don't have to work on it. It's either there or it isn't.

I think that love is something that develops over time. [That being said, I certainly do not believe in "love at first sight." That's dumb.] If a considerable amount of time is spent feeling a certain way for someone, I believe that those feelings are perfectly capable of turning into something more serious. Somebody once asked me if I would walk through hell for "that person." I think that's part of it, too. Like, I think it's a willingness to do close to anything for that person. I think it's putting somebody above almost everyone else and making them a priority in your life in some way. I think it's a type of bond you can have with another person that you don't quite understand, that makes you do stupid things that are, somehow, worth it. It's little things that you make yourself do because you want that person to know just how much you really do care. It's deep. Super deep.. And that's what I don't think a lot of people understand. They use the word too loosely, and that's why I hate using it myself. I don't want to overuse it, because everyone else does. I use it when I really mean it, for the most part. Like, in a friendly way, usually. It goes on. I also think it's subjective. But I'm tired of going on about it...lol.

I think that anyone is perfectly capable of feeling this way. But I don't think we can label it as what it is until we're mature enough to handle it and not make a complete ass of ourselves to the point of destruction. Maturity comes at different ages, so I don't think it's fair to say that we "can't love" or whatever.

I guess that's all I wanted to say.

Carry on, young world.

♥

All along... [My current favorite people.] (7)

christmas is coming soon. --Robert Green

So anywhoo. I don't know what to blog about today. So, I'm just gonna say I'm grateful for the people I surround myself. So this post is dedicated to them folk. Love y'all!!

I guess this is gonna be about how much I kinda like 'em all. I was just making a general statement, but everybody wants me to be all specific. So. Here we go. Pictures and all.

This is dedicated especially to my bff Everett Craig Henderson aka Eduardo Alejandro Sanchez. This guy is awesome. And that's fine. Lol I mean, I don't know what all to say about him except he's super awesome and I'm glad that he's my bestest friend. He's pretty easy to talk to about like everything and he likes cool music and he's a singing thug. The end.

This paragraph here is dedicated to Louis Daniel Mahaffey III. He is also pretty awesome and I greatly appreciate his presence in my life. Shrug. He's a spook. the end. P.S. his picture is pretty cool. That's my wig. ^_^ (he and everett helped me write this. lol)

Maris Anita Veronique Ivy aka Mavi aka Thundercat aka "Poofy Darling" [don't worry, I won't tell nobody about that one] is equally as insane as I am, which is why she is a) singing and laughing like a person who has lost each and every single marble in their mind b) one of my favorites forever and ever. I don't even know why I love her so much. Wit her crazy ass. But, she's not going anywhere for a while.

Niassa Kentara Andrews has been my bff for quite a long while, and I am just fine with that. I will say that we need more pictures together. But other than that, this girl right here is all kinds of amazing and strong and I love her to death. ♥

Patrick Charles Easley is also a favorite of mine. He's like the funniest most amazing oddly deep-voiced characters I know. Maybe it's a choir thing, but he's just as crazy as me and Maris. Love, love, love him. ♥

Janine Patrice Brownridge aka J9 and Robert Jordan Green aka Bobby are new additions to my favorites. I've only known them a few months, but they're down with the thug life movement, and I appreciate it. (see pictures below.) I enjoy them very much. I'm sure you'll be able to tell who's who in each picture, so I'm sure I don't have to give them separate paragraphs due to confusion of who's who.

^^^that's J9

^^^and that's Robert

Thug life. fa'show.

And now...

Marcus Nathaniel Artley. We've been through a lot. And for some reason, we're still around each other. It's insane. He puts up with my insanity and moodiness and I put up with tons of stuff that usually pisses me off. For some reason he won't go away... >___> lol. But I can honestly say he's the bestest boyfriend I've ever had, and, even when we give each other shit, I still love him to death. I might get mad at him sometimes, but it's all out of love.

And that, my friends, is the end. Now I'm tired. A demain, mes cheries. Je t'aime.

♥

"Why, what's up?" (8)

I notice then when I'm down about something, I ask a lot of questions. Random observation. Sorry.

Anywhooo.

The current facebook trend is a little game called "Why, whassup?" In this game, people put the question "Why, whassup?" in their status in whatever variation of the question they feel [i.e. why, what's up? why, what it does? why, whattup? etc.] A person likes the status, and that person gets a paragraph or so full of questions that the person with the status would ask to describe the person that liked the status if someone asked them if they knew that person, and it all ends with, "yeah, i know _____, why, whassup?" I tried to avoid it for the longest time, but it's interesting to see what people have to say. So I liked a couple of the statuses and I thoroughly enjoyed them. They all made me sound like such a good person. [I've been called a sweetheart, a musical genius, and pretty much everyone said I was funny. *shrugs* Who knew?]

Once again, I made observations and asked some questions. Basically, it all came to: how come, when people are asked to give their opinion of a person, they say the nicest things in the world? Like, I'm flattered and all, really, I am. But how do you really feel about me? How do you really feel about the people that you say all these sweet things about? I think the most unflattering thing that was said about me was that I was short. [lol more specifically, I'm "the short one with the smart mouth." And I'll accept that.] And that was from one of the most real people I know, that would honestly say any and everything that she feels, no filters. And I'm not saying these people are being fake, I'm just wondering, are there filters being used in the things everyone else is saying?

I also noticed that more people are liking these statuses than the "Truth is...." status game people were playing. I think people are afraid to hear the truth. They see a trend of super nice wall posts with this game, so people are more gung-ho about this. I say we bring the Truth is... back and tell the honest to Bob truth. No filters. If you don't like somebody, let 'em know. I have yet to see a "Why, whassup?" that says "that girl I'm not fond of? that kid that snaked me? that one person I don't generally fucks with? that dude I don't even know like that?" I'm not saying I want to see shit get started. I'm just wondering how real people are being with this.

And, on another note, I thought this whole thing was stupid to begin with. I just thought it would be fun to see what people had to say about me. And then they started asking me to say stuff about them. And it went from there. And, thankfully, I don't affiliate with that many people, so it's only people I like that are liking my status. *phew* lol.

♥

Oh. And today, I'm thankful for music. Not just Kid Cudi, even though I haven't stopped playing this CD since I got it..lol. But I'm thankful for the discovery and constant re-discovery of one of the most mysterious, amazing things in the world. It keeps me sane. It keeps me here. My music class is definitely my favorite class, and it might be because I always leave there in higher spirits and a thoughtful and somewhat inspired mood. I'm thankful for my guitar, my voice, and my sense of hearing. I'm even thankful for the shit that gets passed off as music that does nothing but give me a headache. It's nothing but a lesson in what not to do and an example of what the world does NOT need to take seriously. But, other than that, I wish it would be forbidden throughout the world... But, yeah. The end ^_^

MotM2: My Personal Analysis (9)

So. As the world must know, I obtained my copy of Man on the Moon II: The Legend of Mr. Rager yesterday, the day it came out. As the world also must know, I love the shit out of Kid Cudi. That is one cool ass guy. And he's talented as shit. He's one of the only artists I respect enough to actually purchase an album. I'm just a little disappointed I wasn't home when this man decided he wanted to visit Chicago. But it's all good, because I still got the album :D

This, right here, is my in-depth, track by track analysis of what I think about this here piece of magic. And that's exactly what it is. Magic.

[If you're really not in the mood for lots of words, you can skip to the bottom to read the general summary of what I thought of the album as a whole.]

Track 1
Scott Mescudi vs. The World
feat. Cee-Lo Green

This track is a nice little introduction to the album. It starts with this soft, slight, cosmic commotion of sorts which leads to four notes taken from the intro track from the last album. If you're familiar with that album/track, it's the "you're in my dreams" part. I like how he did that; in a way, he's letting you know that the Moon Man is back at it. I read somewhere that the track was originally recorded with Cudi singing the chorus, and they sent it to Cee-Lo later, and he added his own harmony and fancy stuff to it. I think it was an extremely nice touch. Basically, it works as a first track, because I feel like it's a nice prelude to the deepness of the rest of the album.

Track 2
REVOFEV

This was one of the tracks I listened to before I got the album. I enjoyed it now, but I thought it would change up a little by the time I heard it on the album. I was expecting it to wind up like Sky Might Fall from MotM1, which I heard before the album was released and sounded slightly different when I heard the album cut. I preferred the ending on the leaked track than the album version. However, REVOFEV didn't follow this trend. Cudi did add some extra strings at the end of this one, but it was very subtle and it worked. The track wasn't much different from the first version of it that I heard. This was also a good one to put at the beginning of the album. For one thing, it just flows nicely after Scott vs the World. Also, it's a nice prelude of sorts that gets us ready before we plunge deeper into the story. This is one of the songs that I, personally, could see him performing. I don't know why... It just creates a visual of him on stage, in a leather jacket and shades, reaching out to the fans, like "Where will you be for the revolution," and trying to get as much hype and feedback as possible, like he's really talking to us in this one.

Track 3
Don't Play This Song
feat. Mary J. Blige

Alright. The message a lot of people got from this song was "don't listen to this song if you're sober." I personally think it's a little deeper than that.. I think he's saying that his thoughts get so deep when HE'S not sober himself, that, if you don't think you can handle it, you shouldn't listen to it, because he's about to get deep into those thoughts and tell us about all about it. I like it. It's like a warning. Like, this is just the beginning, if you can't handle this, you're not ready for the rest of the deep shit. One of the first lines I caught was something along the lines of him not giving a fuck about a scantron. Which made me chuckle. Just thought I'd share that. I feel that Mary J.'s appearance is kinda random. Like, she doesn't really match everything that Cudi's trying to do with this album, and she's in two songs. I feel like, in this song, sometimes she's just there, like she doesn't add anything to the track, and other times, she just sticks out with that soulful voice of hers. Like, I love Mary, just not really for this song. I think without that extra voice on this track, it would have sounded kinda boring, or like it was missing something; I just don't think Mary was what was missing.

Track 4
We Aight (Wake Your Mind Up)

This here really isn't much of a song. Lol it's like a little interlude, almost. It's just this trippy beat and Cudi saying "we aight, wake your mind up, we aight." It's actually not as annoying as one would assume, because the trippy beat is cool, and the crowd screaming faintly in the background kinda adds to the story aspect of it. Like, once again, it's another beginning of the album/before the serious stuff thing, and I feel like with this one, he's saying, at the end of the day, this is what's happening in my life and my mind. I don't know how to explain that further...lol. But I kinda get the feel of a roller coaster. Like, this is the part of the ride when you're getting to the very top of the first drop, and it's like, get ready, here we go. This track is right before the drop.

Track 5
Marijuana

This song makes me think of Wiz Khalifa. For more reasons than one...lol. But it's not so much about how much of it he smokes, it's about its effect on him. And, listening to it now, I just realized there's a big chunk of instrumentals going on, where he doesn't say much of anything except for the occasional "ohhh marijuana." I dunno. I don't have too much to say about this one. It's not one of my favorites. It's not bad, but I don't think it's the best one. People were giving this one a lot of attention on iTunes, but I don't think it's as magically fantastic as people are making it out to be.

Track 6
Mojo So Dope

This is where I think the album starts to take a bit of a turn. Only slightly, though. Like, everything from here not only gets deeper into his mind and life and the story he's trying to tell, but it gets better. I like the sample that was used for this song. I think this was well put-together. There are some parts that are a little in your face ("give a fuck about a motherfuckin' lifestyle.") From my understanding, this is where he's just saying, this is me and my life, and that's that. Basically. There's not much to say about it. It pretty much just sounds nice. It's kinda mellow but kinda rough at the same time. And the sample is just dope. It's a nice turn-around from Marijuana. Like, after he smokes some weed, these are the thoughts that come from his high.

Track 7
Ashin' Kusher

Another pothead anthem...lol. I like this one better than Marijuana, and that's probably because it's more upbeat and fun and all-around enjoyable. It's like, the only fuck bitches, smoke weed kind of song on here, but it's not all kinds of rude and ignorant. It's just like, this is what I do. And it also just sounds nice. And he emphasizes random words, like JUDY, which really threw me off when I first paid attention to that. Basically, it's just a fun song to just bump when you're high on life. Or weed. Whatever you prefer.

Track 8
Erase Me
feat. Kanye West

The single. When I first heard this, I didn't really know what to think about it. I didn't dislike it, I just didn't know how to absorb it, if you will. It was basically a nice little rock ditty with a verse from Ye, and I had no idea if he was putting it on the album, because it was so different. This was the first indication that Cudi was doing some new shit, that was not straight hip hop. This man learned how to play guitar a few months ago. And it's not like he learned it and did a random riff on some real nigga song *coughLilWaynecoughLollipopcoughcough* Cudi is going in a direction that a lot of hip hop artists are afraid to go in, and that's one reason why I respect him so much as an artist. Also, this song is just catchy as hell. And Ye did a decent job on his verse. Also a fun song. I like it.

Track 9
Wild'n Cuz I'm Young

So. The beat for this song is like, super basic, as is the hook. It's not a hugely exciting track, but it goes kinda hard. I could hear this at like a cool ass party or at a fancy bar or something. With lots of strobe lights and such. Or maybe a bomb ass strip club. I don't know. It's just a mellowed out song saying fuck the bullshit, i like to party. The last 30 seconds or so give a feel of how fucked up he is after such partying. His words are played backwards, and there's this kind of melancholy, not quite tragic, lonely ass piano. That one part might be the first hint at how serious he gets on this album. Shit gets real, btw.

Track 10
The Mood

This is actually one of my favorites on the album. It's another kind of trance-y, mellowed, trippy song about the party scene and what he does when he's not so sober. I think It's like a part two to Wild'n Cuz I'm Young, because it kinda tells the same story. I just think it sounds doper. There's a slight echo and this really eerie laugh in the background that kinda makes me think of how he talks about demons he confronts and stuff.

Track 11
MANIAC
feat. Cage & St. Vincent

This. Right here. Is musical madness. This is another one of my favorites, if not my most favorite. Face it, this man is messed up. Lol, he goes through some things, and he has some scary ass thoughts. I'm not saying he's a legit maniac. I think he just feels that way sometimes. Like, this song is an example of the dark times he experiences in his life. We all have 'em, but can we all say we're as dark and twisted as Kudi and his thoughts? Not so much. The addition of Cage was kinda dope. Cage is pretty dope himself. He's kinda on the same dark page as Cudi, so I think he works for this song. I also think the St. Vincent sample takes this song even further, because her voice is kinda eerie, and she just repeats "make this black whole blacker." It really taps into the darkness aspect of the song. It. Is. Dope. [SN: There is talk of a video (AKA short film) being directed by Shia LaBeouf for this song? Are you excited? I'm excited. I ♥ Shia. And I love me some Cudi even more. So that should be tons of awesome.]

Track 12
Mr. Rager

This song is what this album is all about: Mr. Rager and his travels and adventures. It's lighter than the previous few tracks, like, it's a lot more upbeat. He's asking Mr. Rager where he's headed and can he tell us some of his stories, to which Mr. Rager says he's off on an adventure, "I'm on my way to heaven," which kinda makes me think "pursuit of happiness?"And when he asks about the telling of the stories of his travels, it's like, this is what this album is about. I honestly feel like this track should have been placed earlier in the album, but I guess it's a nice relief from the heavy tracks before it.

Track 13
These Worries
feat. Mary J. Blige

This track is kinda heavy. I know they said Kudi confronted his cocaine addiction on the album, and I'm wondering if this is where he does it. Because this song is heavy, man..lol. Also, before he starts every verse, there's this slight lull, and then a big ignorant sniff. So. *shrugs* I actually kinda like Mary on this track. Kinda. Like I still don't feel like she was necessary for this album, but I prefer her on this track to Don't Play This Song. When neither Cudi or Mary are singing, the background noise is, once again, sort of eerie. For lack of a better word, I think it's an interesting song. Like, you actually have to listen to every part of it to get a real feel for it.

Track 14
The End
feat. GLC, Chip the Ripper and Nicole Wray

I like this song for so many reasons. This song is the most hip-hop-y, if you will. Like, you almost forget this man raps until this song. And he's decent. And it's so chill. And I'm also fans of GLC and Chip. So this song is just a win for me. Except the Nicole Wray girl kinda annoys me... But overall, this is a nice one. [Just a heads up, Cudi's verse is last, so, it'll be a while before you remember he raps...lol]

Track 15
All Along

Just like the first three tracks introducing the album effectively, the last three tracks are nice endings to MotM2. This song is a bit of a self-analysis. The emotion is evident all up and through this song. I don't have a whole lot to say about this one. You just have to hear it. It's the strings and the mellowness of his voice that give it that emotion. I dunno. Just listen.

Track 16
GHOST!

This is also up there on my list of favorites. This was another one I heard before I got the album, and we all know how people on youtube like to screw things up a bit. So the first version I listened to was in a higher pitch and was a little faster. And I fell in love with it. Then I got the album, and it was lower and slower, and I lost a little bit of love for it. It wasn't as aesthetically pleasing as it was initially, but it's growing on me. It's still a decent song. At first, I thought this was the song where he confronted the cocaine, and so, for a while, I had dubbed it the coke song. Now, I have no clue what it's about. But it's heavy and eerie and full of emotion. Like, it's the last big bang of dark, eerie emotion before the last track, which is kinda light like All Along. More about that later. The first few notes of this song are insanely creepy. Like, I don't know if the title of the song has anything to do with it, but it gives me a bit of a chill. It's just such a crackin' song. The end of it is kinda random though. Again, random ass piano, some extra vocals. Cold song. It's quotable, deep, eerie, and just nice.

Track 17
Trapped in my Mind

This is the real track that says "the end :D hope you enjoyed the show!" It's certainly not as heavy as some of the others. But, like he says, he's trapped in his mind. Like, he went deep in there to give us this magical piece of artistry, lol, and he says "it's a gift and a curse," like, he gets some real, creative shit from that scary place, but it's still a scary place. He can't get away from it, but he's learning to make the best of it. When the song starts, it kinda sounds like one of those songs you hear thinking it's a new, complete song but when you listen to it, it's like a live version of something he just started working on. Like, it's not bad, it just has this raw, unfinished sound to it. But it's catchy. I like the twinkly bits. They make me feel good.

DAMN that took a long time to write.
But, yeah. Overall, I think it's an awesome album. He got real creative with it, and did some things that threw people off, but I think it's more about accepting the off-ness of it, and learning to like something different. That's what I think he was going for with this, a bunch of different things that you have to feel instead of just hear. I like that you could really feel the emotion throughout most of the album, and he wasn't talking about one thing. He gave an interesting view of his life and the way he's living it, and it's not just the glamorous parts. He's giving us the more personal, dark side that you really have to be ready for. You can't go in expecting it to be like MotM1. It's not the same at all. I think both albums are great for different reasons. But I think this one is an acquired taste. I was not disappointed. Kudos, Cudi. Can't wait for the third one. :)

♥

[btw, Today, I am thankful for Kid Cudi and the music he makes. In case you couldn't tell. ;D]

Where Am I Going? (14)

It's about that time. This will be the second most productive thing I've done all day. I haven't done much all day. I haven't done anything, actually, except have a semi-allergic reaction (the first time I've ever had an itch after eating a kit-kat. sigh..) and help the roomie with this math test. Meeeeeeh.
Alright, so lately, I've been contemplating my future. I'm not 100% sure about this journalism thing. Maybe about 95%, since I'm equipped with enough of the stuff I need to go anywhere with a journalism career. But I've actually contemplated becoming a teacher... Either an English teacher, a math teacher, or a music teacher. I personally don't like math enough to become a math teacher, but, for some reason, people think I'm a math genius of some sort.. And I like explaining what I do know to people. But I don't like kids that much. So I don't really know. I figured that, since one of my long term life goals is to have a positive influence on people, being a teacher would assist in that. I hate seeing something wrong and not being able to do anything about it, and one of those things is lack of decent education and kids being ignorant as all get out and thinking it's ok.
On some real, "I believe the children are our future" type shit, our generation has gone to poop, and I don't want to see the next generation do worse. So, I feel like I could be a teacher. I just don't know how much I'd enjoy it. Because, like I said, I don't like kids. After a certain age, they get mean as hell. And teenagers are just disrespectful. I think it's early enough in my college career to be changing my mind. I don't know, I'll figure it out. Those of you who know me well enough, what do you guys think? Am I teacher material?

:P

♥

P.S. ONLY FOUR DAYS UNTIL MAN ON THE MOON II!!!
Here's another track that, apparently, Shia LaBeouf will be directing a video for. Excitement, much? Yes. Very much.
Click that shit! >> that. shit. << Seriously, though, click it. It's awesome.

Making Up/Best City in the Whole Wide, Wide World (15)

So, I finally took a plunge, and now things make more sense. That doesn't mean I feel any better about the lack of presence in my life.. Basically, I fussed about how we haven't had a decent conversation in the longest time, and that I felt ignored. And he broke it down, but I wasn't having it, so I gave alternate solutions, and things were cool. Then I called him funk butt. Which I think might be new nickname material...
All in all, this night was pretty awesome. And I don't know if it had anything to do with the conversation, but, if it did, it all goes back to what I was saying about me missing himand not talking to him and that bringing me down, blah blah blah. But I really did feel a lot better. Today was just a decent day all around. Especially this entire evening from about 5 to...now. [currently 1:25 in the AM] Now I'm debating on going to sleep now or busying myself with something.

Also, I have decided that, for the month of November, I will end each post with something that I am grateful for.
Today...: I really miss home.Chicago is like, one of the greatest places on earth.
And I'm extremely grateful to have been born and raised in such an insanely amazing place. I can't wait to go back. My whole life is in Chicago: my family, friends, home, everything I know. And on top of that, the place is BEAUTIFUL. Only 15 days until I go back! Yay!

And, aw yeah. The Legend of Mr Rager in 5 DAYS. :D I'm geeked. Yes I am.

♥

Anticipating Man on the Moon II (16)

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Number one, I've decided I'm going to start blogging everyday. I just feel it necessary. It's a bit of motivation, in a way. But, anyway...

Right now, I'm gonna talk about my favoritest guy right now, and his new album, coming out in LESS THAN ONE WEEK! :D
Scott Mescudi, one of the greatest artists out right now (in my opinion at least) will be releasing his album Man on the Moon II: The Legend of Mr. Rager on November 9, 2010, and, if someone didn't offer to get me the CD, I would have been first in line at Target or Walmart to pick that up, y'dig.

Now let's talk about this here album. This here album has already been leaked to the world. [whoops] Whoever is responsible for that has, number one, ruined the element of surprise for people that want to get the album and wanted to wait to own the album before hearing it in its entirety. However, they are doing a little bit of promo by letting the album slip. I've gotta be completely honest, I went and listened to as much as the album as I would allow myself to listen to, and, I gotta say, some of the tracks I heard made me want the album even more than I already did. Didn't think it was possible. But I feel like a crack fiend. I gotta have that shit! But seriously, it's a very well crafted album and I can't wait to have it in my possession.

Now, a lot of people are fretting about the leaks. Cudi himself said that he was cool with the leaks, and that, if it was up to him, he would give his tracks away for free. He says he doesn't make much money off of record sales anyway, and that he gets most of his money from doing shows. So why are people tripping more than he is himself? Calm yourselves, children. I feel as if we are true Cudi fans [which, the world knows good and well, that I am :)] we'd support him and go out and buy the album anyway, regardless of the leaks.

I actually saw a comment on one of the songs that made its way to youtube, and the person that made the comment said that they felt that his real fans wouldn't buy the album because he said he would give the music away for free if he could. I thought that was the dumbest thing I ever heard. Let's be real...he gets SOME money from record sales. Probably not a whole lot, but he gets something, the producers get something, everyone that made the album possible gets something for that. They didn't work for nothing. So, whether he wants to share his gift with the world for free or not, I feel as if true fans would go out and buy that shit anyway, to show just how much we support what he does.

I'm not saying that if you don't get the album, you're not a true fan. True fan-ness is subjective. I just feel as if it doesn't make you any less of a fan for going to buy something Cudi says he wants to give out for free.

I guess that's all. Enjoy this other track I dug up. Click the hearts by the pic at the top of this post. [P.S. Check my last post for another song, GHOST! which I have dubbed my personal fave from the album:) Skip the dramatics, and go straight to the bottom of that post.]

♥