Sunday (38)

today is sunday. the one day a week people get up in the morning to wear fancy clothes to sit in a hot establishment full of other people in fancy clothes, that hoop, holler, sing, and shout their praises and thanks to a man they have never met or seen before, and, more or less, have no solid proof of his existence except for what a book tells them. when it's all over, the people go on about they're week doing things that same book tells them not to do. only some of those people actually take the time during the rest of the week to consider what The Man would frown upon if they did.

now before anyone starts telling me about myself and going on about how wrong i am, let me point out that i never said if i agreed or disagreed with all of this. i'm just analyzing it.

i am not a devout christian; i do not really follow any religion. but i'm not a straight up atheist. i don't know what i am except confused. i want to say that i believe in some higher power, but i don't know what it is that i believe in. i can't really get with the whole religion thing, though. i mean, i'm down with the moral aspect of it all. like, certain things are bad and certain things are ok, and i like that all of that gets laid out, with christianity, to be more specific. but i don't agree with the way a lot of other religions deal with things and their views and such. which brings me to another point.....religion is another reason for separation and that sort of thing. a friend of mine actually discussed this with me once [you're probably reading this, actually] and he made a valid point; religion has been the cause of several wars and stuff. which makes me wonder...how can something that says it's wrong to kill other people drive people to kill other people... i don't get that.
but when i think about the here-and-now of religion, it gets iffy to me. like, first of all, how did we come to exist? different religions have different answers to that question...but the truth is, there's really only one answer and no one is positive about what the answer is, because none of us were here to witness it, and it's not like anyone was there to take a picture of it to save for the rest of us to see. *shrug* i'm not gonna side with one religion and say everyone else is wrong. i don't even know who i'd side with. as far as christianity goes, i'm not so sure about the entire population of this earth being brought about by a random guy who took a nap and broke his ribs and had another human being sprout from that rib....isn't that magic? which is frowned upon in the bible, isn't it? hmm.. it's questionable..
i like the inspirational aspect of christianity, though. like, how everything bad that happens is like a test of character and strength and such. or how there's someone you can talk to in times of need. but then, i don't know if i'm willing to put all my faith into something or someone that i don't know anything about, never met, and have no proof of existence of.
so basically, i'm on the fence. like, everybody around me goes to church on sunday, reads the bible, KNOWS the bible, etc., but i don't. i don't disagree, i just don't agree, you know? maybe my opinion can be swayed? maybe people feel the same way i do?

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